I constantly feel like I get nothing done. More accurately, I don't get done as much as I would like to get done. Even after four and a half years of being a full-time Chronic Babe, I still struggle to bring my expectations down in line with my capabilities.
It doesn't help that I have an "invisible illness", i.e. I don't look sick. Even I look into the mirror and wonder why I can't do as much as someone else my age. Because I don't look sick, I often find myself in situations with other people where I realize I am doing way too much simply because I am trying to keep up with them. It is hard to constantly have to set limits and say, "No, I can't do that." or "No, that's too much for me." I am much more of a "Yes!" person...
Because I am so limited in what and how much I can do, I find that I am so much more focused on all the things I haven't gotten around to yet. It's so bad, I actually avoid spending too much time writing down a To Do list for fear of becoming overwhelmed, anxious and frustrated. Somehow the same kind of attention doesn't seem to go into acknowledging when I completed a task or meet a goal. Perhaps that is why I am feeling like I never get anything done. I'm sure it's not because I don't get things done. Maybe it's just about refocusing, paying more attention and celebrating what I can do. A variation on:
So I've decided to initiate Fulfillment Friday's, where I spend a few moments each Friday contemplating my accomplishments. Since I was sick all last week, this might not be the best time to start, but here I go:
Success is not defined
everything you want,but by enjoying
everything you have.Learn to enjoy what you have.
- Completed 7 days of blog-a-day entries.
- Completed an 8 week Puppy Education class with Theodor this past Wednesday. Yeah, Theodor graduated!
- Mailed off the completed application for Total and Permanent Disability Student Loan Discharge, signed by my doctor and myself, taken to the Post Office by Robert.
- Completed a five day course of antibiotics---took them all on time and finished the prescription as ordered!