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You might be surprised that I actually think about working from time to time. I know that I spend a lot of time here at OMA&P! talking about all the chronic illnesses I manage and sharing my tips for making life more fibro-friendly. I perhaps have failed to mention that prior to life with fibromyalgia, chronic pain and fatigue, I worked full time for over 10 years when I only had type 2 diabetes, chronic Hepatitis C and cancer survivorship issues. Unfortunately fibromyalgia has been the deal breaker, disabling me and making me unable to work. But that doesn't stop me from wondering every once in a while: What if, one day, I could go back to work?
You see, the truth is I miss going to work each day. And I miss much more than the paycheck. I miss the social interaction, having colleagues and spending my lunch and break times socializing with other people. I miss the sense of accomplishment I got working on tasks, projects and from getting things done. I miss developing my career, gaining experience, moving along my career path and striving towards my long term goals.
What would it take for me to go back to work in my current condition? I'm not entirely sure, but I have some thoughts on the subject. My preliminary list of requirements for working while disabled include:
- A job I can do from home
- Hours that I set for myself
- Tasks that are amenable to being done in 15 minute work sessions
- Control of deadlines or due dates, so I can give myself plenty of time to complete tasks and review my work before I submit it
- The ability to set work aside for a day or a week (or two) when I get a cold/flu, brain fog or a fibromyalgia flare-up
- A back-up plan to potentially hand off an assignment to someone else if I am unable to complete it on time
- Projects that use my hands sparingly, so as not to aggravate my thoracic outlet syndrome symptoms
- Work that doesn't require a lot of time on the telephone
- Assignments that are simple, straight-forward and require only a moderate amount of brain power
- And lastly, at this time, a position that only require up to 5 hours of work per week
This whole exercise seems to reinforce my initial thoughts that my ability to return to work is dependent on an improvement in my symptoms and level of functioning. But that won't stop me from wondering right now what my life might be like if I just got 20 to 30% better, another big "what if?" Despite all the uncertainty about my future health, I refuse to give up hope and stop wondering "what if?" After all, what if your thoughts create your reality? If I have a choice, and I always do, I chose to believe that one day I will figure out how to go back to work despite my disabilities. Perhaps all I need is some more time to figured out what jobs work for me now and how I'll get them.
Do you ever think about what it would take to go back to work now that you are disabled? Share your thoughts on the subject by leaving me a comment.
3 comments
I absolutely think about this! I miss working, and have been unable to work in my field since graduating with a degree.
Since my field is one I LOVE (music) and something I enjoy doing everyday, I feel the loss in a few different ways, like you.
My chronic illnesses are completely different, but I have also come to the conclusion (more than once) that my general functioning needs to improve in order to go back to work.
Thanks for your comment Emily.
It is good to know that someone else has come to the same conclusion I have ... I need to get a bit better before I can consider going back to work. And I am sad that my degree in Social Work is sadly not being used anymore.
I just found your site and am so excited! I have Addison's Disease and found you thru Mo's blog. But, even though I've not been able to write about it yet, I also had bi-lateral Thoracic Outlet Syndrome which was extremely severe and required Cardio-Thoracic decompression surgeries (each a year apart) to release the subclavian arteries. Those experiences could be a blog in itself, but my Addison's Disease is what truly put my life in additional danger thru every one of my surgeries. A few years after my decompression surgeries, I had to have my minor pectoral muscle removed as it was shredding and felt like broken glass shards in my upper chest area. It's been a long, very, very hard battle. I had serious post-surgical complications that are lasting. But, I can use my arms again without completely losing blood flow. Yes, it was very bad. No pulse to my upper body when my arms were raised waist level, then took over 2 minutes after arms were put back down for pulse to resume. Not a fun place to be - was always being "strangled." Anyway, I will be back. Come see me sometime - I look forward to reading more daily.
Lana C.
www.findinglana.blogspot.com
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